tonight's dinner was phenomenal.it wasn't complete(without impt ppl like mama,illa n astro) but it was by far the greatest dinner i 've had for some time.besides the good company, i had like this chef making us dinner and all. the best part was my birthday cake.CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE...thank you dad. and also,i finally got my jason mraz hat that i have always wanted.thank you cik cok.and tanya got me a black pearl necklace.it was really sweet of her.if only i had an older sister like her..i miss astro so much.really hope he gets well soon.don't think of me too much ok baby.i will see u real soon.love u babe! ok.back on the serious matter.what ami going to do now.i want to work and study at the same time.but i also want to make dad happy by staying here with him.but i also pity illa who is alone back home.omg.i really want my old life back.this is difficult.see you next entry.